Take a Deep Breath In, and Release it.

I find myself aimlessly wandering the internet in search of something good to read tonight. There’s seems to be so much out there, yet something you want to find seems to be so far out of reach. Google is a great tool but it’s difficult to find what you’re looking for if you don’t exactly know what that may be.

Tonight, along with every other night, is yoga night. I have somewhat been out of my funk lately and have missed a few nights of yoga. Maybe its because iv been feeling happier and happier about my body and the way it looks. Or maybe i have been distracted by something slightly more entertaining? Who knows...

The program i do yoga to is on at 3:30am and is called Breathing Space Yoga.

I also downloaded various programs from torrent sites, including "Earth and Fire Yoga" and "Better Sex Through Yoga" that i have yet to watch, but ill let you know how it goes when i do.

I always find my mind wandering while doing yoga. Maybe its the beautiful set they have, or the crazy poses they pull, but i have always wanted to make love in that setting. Let me take a moment to describe it to you.

They are outside, everything is pristine. They are on some sort of gazebo. There are white sheets or drapes hanging from each wall and they are blowing in the wind. They are all on lovely yoga mats (but usually i replace that with a bed or a hammock, something nice...). There are ferns hanging from each corner of the gazebo and where the wind blows the drapes you can see a lake of some sorts.

Its very peaceful... Maybe thats why i have only seen it used in yoga, and not in porn. Who knows.

How Do You Fix Something This Broken?

I love you?

Three words that can change someones life as well as your own. I love you. Love... hm..

My description of "Love" is that it's the most important and fulfilling emotion that we will ever feel. It is the strongest feeling i have ever felt and iv only experienced it a few times. Its so overwhelming and powerful that in the moment you feel it, the moment it hits you, you feel as if you own the world. But could this be real? can it be? Love is like a continually shattering mirror that always leaves behind images etched in people's hearts; but it will remain a mystery forever. Many people give themselves over to this mystery, but while love can produce the most tender and delicate feelings in anyone's soul, it alone can open a window in the hearts of a very few.

Im at a loss of words today and im sorry i cant write much more.

Lets Create a Time Machine

I wish we could just be happy again, like before. When i used to sit at your bed and you'd play me a new song you learned, or sit in the car and watch the moon turn red during the eclipse. But things change, people grow, and life gets hard. The most important thing is to get through it, and do the best you can.

Sometimes i wonder why things happen the way they do. I am sitting here from my computer desk at home, in Welland, and in three days ill be sitting on my bed, with my new sheets and new laptop, writing a note or doing a blogTV show, from Oakville.

Today, i can tell you i have never been more excited and sad to be leaving home all at the same time. And you might be thinking "what?!, your last blog said you hated life" or whatever i wrote about that day... Well i never go back and read what i have written. Someone once told me when they record something or make a video, once they are happy with it they post it and never watch it again.

I do that with the notes i write.

I was watching Tyra Banks the other day on TV. A therapist was helping young people with their odd habits and addictions. One girl came on the show with her husband. She has one child and shes 19 years old. She missed her prom, graduation, and most of her last months of school for this baby she now has. Her problem was, she couldn't stop crying.

I sat back and watched this, watched the therapist talk about it... and something he said just made so much sense to me that it hasn't left.

"A setback is a setup for a comeback"

It just makes sense right now.
I dont know.


I am me.
Is it possible?
Can it be done?
To capture Joy
Loves smile begun
Tender hands
Safe and secure
Memories of home
Love is here, and more...
- unknown