Thats It.

Well, today I woke up and found myself thinking different, feeling different, and overall just different than I was when I fell asleep. All of my problems felt thrown out the window, and I feel like things that are not very important, shouldn’t matter as much as I believe they do.

I guess you could say I "woke up" because technically, I did. I want to be happy and lately I feel like I have been falling far from happiness. Today, waking up in my bed, with the window wide open, felt like starting new. I went on facebook, read all of the blogs I have posted, looked and studied my profile, "in a relationship" just seemed to pop out at me today.

I guess I haven’t really been keeping my side of the relationship. Lately with all the chaos of graduating, moving out, getting a job, and especially drama class, I haven’t been able to fully give everything I have to this person, which I care very much about. This morning that feels as if it has all changed. For breakfast I ate a hamburger. I know I know, everyone who reads this is going to be like WHAT A HAMBURGER BUT U DON'T EAT MEAT?

Well fuck it.

A part of me wanted to be a vegetarian for the animals, save the animals blah blah blah, but in reality, what are we really doing? They still kill the same amount of cows, nothings going to change if one person decides they are no longer going to eat meat. If the rest of the world decided they weren’t going to eat meat well, that would be another story.

The other part of me did it for the healthy part of it all. Yes its healthy, I mean.. I did loose 15pounds (probably off my ass). So I figured since i'm not really getting into this whole vegetarian thing, i’m going to create a diet for myself, a proper one.

Its not that I disliked not eating meat, I actually enjoyed not having to. Haha that probably sounds weird... I would make my own meals, decide what I was going to eat for dinner, and have it. I wouldn’t have to cook for everyone. I want to keep that up. Cooking for myself gave me time to think and just enjoy life. Wow that sounds so corny.

Anyways, today i’m going to go out. I’m not sure where, but i’m going to go. I feel good, happy, excited, haha I just want to drive and listen to music so loud that my ear drums pop out of my skull.


New life is such a beautiful thing.

Lets Talk Food

As you all probably are unaware of... i have decided to become a vegetarian. I can definitely say its been easy so far.. Yesterday i realized the my food choices are limited and i now have to find substitutes for meet in my lasagna. I have also noticed that many restaurants have limited menus for vegetarians and today it was very hard for me to find something i would enjoy from a menu, at my favorite restaurant, Kelsey's.

So i thought id write up a little about my experiences the past few days about my new "meat free" life. Alright so where to start... Let me see..

A long time ago i decided i wanted to change for environmental and animal rights reasons. I joined PETA and donated money for a while until i finally decided it wasn't really enough and i wanted to do more. Becoming a vegetarian popped into my mind a few times but i didn't really fully think about it until recently. Becoming a vegetarian has now turned into a lifestyle habit for, not only animal rights, but also health purposes. I went from having to have a Baconator at Wendy's at least 3 times a week to none at all. I don't mind if people eat meat in front of me (that would be silly); I only mind when they tease or challenge me about being vegetarian which brings me to my next topic.

My parents. "I made hot dogs" "Look a chicken salad" or the famous "Want to go to Wendy's for a Baconator?" have seemed to have become regular saying in my household the past few days. My mother has stopped me from cooking meals for everyone and now i only make meals for myself. Iv had to buy my own groceries and hide things so they don't throw them away but other than that i have so far accomplished overcoming the temptations. I respect everyone's right to eat whatever makes them happy, and hope they will do the same for me, but so far i have gotten absolutely no support for my parents.

I certainly think becoming a vegetarian is a wonderful and healthy decision for me. I did ONCE hear of a woman who began losing her hair after being vegetarian for a decade, and I sometimes worry that will happen to me... eek!

I hope everyone supports my decision to become 100% vegetarian and its definitely going to be a challenge. The first few months i figure will be hard but in the end i believe this is a good healthy decision! If anyone has some good websites for recopies or knows about any restaurants who have a good menu for vegetarians comment and help out a bit! Ill keep you posted thanks for the support!


Looks like this is all thats going to be on my mind when it comes to food... sigh.